Love In Multiple Episodes - Take 9

Ninth Sight..

December 25th - Merry Christmas ~

Today is a beautiful day, full of love and warmth :D Jingle bell jingle bell jingle all the way ~ ♥

In this good day, I wish something beautiful will happen :3

I just got the feel to go praying this morning, it feels like I am really going to find my true love soon and this feeling is really, really great ~

You know, when you are praying something like.. If he's the one, let me know and let us be together forever, and if unfortunately, he's not the right one.. please soon let me find the way ~

Actually, yesterday.. I was about to start a conversation with the Lime Guy through Whatsapp Messenger ~ You know, nowadays when we saved somebody's number on the phone and all of the chatting applications will then automatically appear and if the person is using it he'll be added as a friend of us :3

But.. how come this Lime Guy only has Whatsapp ?? o.O You gotta be kidding me ! I mean, in this era.. it's nearly a basic for everyone using smartphone to have at least Whatsapp, Line, Kakao Talk, and many more ~

Well, never mind, as long as he's using 'one' then I'll still have chance to talk to him *^_^*

I've endured it for a while, since I got his number and his name appeared on my Whatsapp list, my hand was so itchy to type something on the chat box >.< But I've made it this far, because I don't want to be too obvious to show my admiration and try to make it look more 'cool style' ~

So, last night.. I randomly got an idea to start a chat, but then I was hesitating a bit, going back and forth, til suddenly I saw a sentence moving below his display name on the chat box :O

Erm, Okay.. his last seen was like, two months ago ? *straight face*

What on earth is happening ?! So.. it means that, the only messenger I've been hoping for, equals to nothing... How can you do this to me ??!! T_T

This is a mixed feelings, it feels like I've already run a hundred miles but then I realized I am back to square one again :|

But this situation won't defeat me, it's fine.. I can still talk to him whenever I meet him again since we literally know each other :)

Tonight, I am going to catch the fireworks again, with my usual partner xD I've prepared my long time no touch Canon EOS 500D ~ I wish to capture more nice moments like I did last time when I finally approached the Lime Guy, it was like killing two birds at the same time keke

Seriously, when I saw his display picture on Whatsapp.. Gosh ! I wanna drool ~~~ It was.. too perfect !! He looks really really handsome and gorgeous there ~ The background looks like a snowy place with the streets covered with snow and he's standing there with scarf plus warm clothes. So damn handsome !

I regretly told my friend that his Whatsapp is no longer used, but I can't help to show her the lovely picture, we should share beautiful things in life rite :))

Yeah ~ I've expected that her reaction will be the same as mine, exactly ! Well, who won't be dazzled by that perfectly taken picture with a nearly perfect man in it ? Unless you're out of your mind, but I guarantee this picture gonna make you insane too lol

Miraculously, I repeat it, just like a miracle, when I show her the picture, that 'last seen' thing appeared again, but it's not the same with yesterday ~ it is shown that his last seen is T-O-D-A-Y and just like two hours ago ?? o.O Unbeliavable !! How.. how could.. this be ? *jawdropping*

The chance is here ~

Of course, after I came back into my room.. I start typing and arrange a thoughtful text to be sent to him :D

Well, it's nothing much.. I finally found an 'alibi' to start the chat, asking if he saw my witch doll which was supposed to be hung on my bag that day ~ Owh seriously, I am very tired and sleepy right now.. Since I don't want to look pathetic waiting for the uncertain reply, I decided to take a nap :)

Hmm.. a nap for me, usually won't be less than 2 hours :p but this time, I am not very sure, maybe I slept for about 3 hours xD

And here it comes, he replied \(^o^)/

I admit that I did greasy thing like introduction preface on the text, because I still don't know his personality that well so I think it's better to keep it safe ~ And, his reply was short, and 'friendly' just like replying a text from a friend, instead of a 'passer by who once asked for help' kkk
I sent him the picture of the witch doll that 'reported' to be lost, actually I just took the picture at that time and send it, because the witch doll is there hanging on my bag ~ It's just an alibi :P

He took some time to reply, while I am getting ready for going out tonight ~ And, unexpectedly again.. he commented on the picture said it looks like a voodoo doll and type 'haha' thing, are we getting close now ? :")

I am on my way, and am waiting for my friend to pick me up on the intersection, and it's a crazy traffic jam in here, yeah.. today is Christmas dude ~

I take the time to reply the chat while waiting for this endless jam until my friend arrived, I switch the topic into talk about the shopping mall where we often visit (and coincidentally met). I said that I bet the shopping mall will be insanely crowded because there'll be fireworks show also ~ and of course, my point is to bring up the memories on that day where I approached him, because there was also fireworks and I took a nice picture.. I just, I just want to share it with him :3

Aw.. I've waited for quite a long time and didn't see the cars moving, so I decided to walk on my own, since it's quite near.. and asked my friend to meet on the spot :)

I sent the fireworks picture to the Lime Guy, and since he said that he agrees with my opinion about the craze on the mall on Xmas day, I guess he's not coming tonight.. Okay :(
Something is weird here, he was replying my texts regularly but after I sent him that picture.. he didn't reply anymore :O
What's wrong ??

I don't understand.. I mean, it was all good and suddenly it has ended :|
What have I done so wrong when I just share the nice picture because he said he didn't see the fireworks on that day ? Why ??
Okay, I decided to forget it a while and enjoy the time with my friend ~ Hell yeah, it's the climax of what people called 'sea of people' tonight, really.. to the extent that we need to queue up just for taking escalator ! And every restaurant is full table, the food court is full occupied, just everywhere is full, full, and full of people.. it's hard to even move, and it's like a situation in movie or drama where you can easily lost your child somewhere, be careful..

I missed the fireworks show ! I was walking inside relaxedly with my friend believing that the show usually won't start on time.. but unexpectedly this time, it was on time ! T_T
When we heard the sound of explosions, we rushed to outdoor and since it's so many people in here.. I barely get a spot which is worse than last time because the view is very restricted, geez
I use my camera to capture it, but none of them came out good ~ what a perfect disaster tonight x.X

After the fireworks done, we are hungry and we need something to eat.. but we just get rejected everywhere in the mall, we can't afford to be on a waiting list that has a long way to go ~ So we decided to leave.. Seriously, it's too crowded and inhuman place to stay xD

I suggest to have a quick meal at the convenience store since we are in a hunger SOS condition, but on the way there.. We decided to go to the restaurant near the apartment building where my friend and I usually have dinner before going to the shopping mall. It's a good idea ~
Finally something to boost my mood a bit, I am feeling much better after my stomach is filled keke

And then we just leave and head home, there's nothing more to do ~
That moment when we come out from the apartment complex, we are in the middle of discussing about the new wedges shoes my friend wearing, til suddenly I stop talking, because I saw the Lime Guy ~ *shock*

He is right in front of me NOW !

He didn't notice at first, and I got a lil bit of time to tell my friend about this 'sounds impossible fact' happening at the moment. I completely lost my mind ~ You know, when you text someone, you can express things easily because your face isn't showing.. but then when you just texted someone and suddenly bump into that someone.. I believe you'll experience the same thing as mine, I can feel that my face is freezed, and perhaps it has added another fold on my brain xD

I was left with a huge question mark about why he didn't reply my chat, and now I am given the chance to ask that very directly, in a shocking way ~ Of course, I can't even think about the question, I am just totally blank right now..

It seems like he's goin to just passing by us without realizing our existences, and I already prepared to touch him a bit if he still doesn't see us ~
And more shocking, when we're getting very close to each other.. he finally looked, what a good way of surprising people huh ?

Seriously, my heart skipped many beats at that time.. fiuh ~~~
Guess what ? I've never imagined this kind of encounter.. but as a drama expert *just how I called myself* , I can expect some dramatically lovely scenes to come out ~ trust me, this is not an ordinary encounter, if you watched enough dramas, this kind of thing only happens on screen and the writer will wrap it romantically.

But well, I think too much ~ This is reality !
So, what actually happens is.. the Lime Guy just as shocked as my friend and I :O He spontaneously laughs (???) as we're passing by each other, and I automatically raised my hand and waved toward him.. as if I know him that well =.=

I am confused now.. what's with the 'awkward laugh' we had just now ? And.. I thought he isn't coming tonight, we talked about the mall goin to be crowded and he didn't give any sign of coming at all o.O
Actually it's pretty late for 'just arrived' and goin for gym ~ sure.. the Lime Guy stays weird and mysterious.. can't be helped ~

Is this a Christmas gift for me ? Is it a hint that the Lime Guy will be the right one as in my prayer this morning ? Oh ~ I am so grateful then kkk
I clearly understand there are still many missing pieces between us.. about why he didn't reply, about why he was acting awkward just now, and many many more..

As a Scorpio I can't just overlook these details.. but for now, for tonight.. I can just leave it all behind and be happy :) At the end of the day, appreciate good things that happened is better than worrying about things that might or might not happen.

Of course, I am so thankful for today, I mean that I was able to see the Lime Guy in this warm and lovely day, I just missed the 'kissing under the mistletoe' to make this day completely perfect ♥

Good night and have a sweet dream ~ I am not sure if anything can get sweeter than this :3
From tonight onwards, I guess I'll be so looking forward to every tomorrow, because I wish to have endless tomorrows filled by surprises I am looking up to, with the Lime Guy in every of it :D

Love In Multiple Episodes - Take 8

Eight Sight..

December 20th - D-day ~ Yes it's the same meaning with The Day.. People usually do counting down on some special occasions they're looking forward to, then they will create reminder like D-3 D-2 D-1.. Nowadays, I am not sure if it has something to do with the Korean Wave or not, but mostly in K-Drama they used the phrase D-day so I guess it naturally became a trend in our daily life ? :P

In the past, we used to read the statement like, "Miracles will come to those who believe.. If you wait patiently, something good will come.." etc. Yes, I admit those words are cheering and somehow giving us hope.. but then people start to correct the statement into something like, "Dream, and make it happen.. All you need to do is to wake up and get what you wish for, by yourself ~"

So, which one do you prefer ? For me, I'll keep believing, also creating the miracles :)

I'm really regretting how I just let the chance slipped away right in front of me last time. I am not sure if I could get another 'gold chance' like that again, but no matter what the circumstances are.. I got to do it !

Hmm.. actually, I have another intention for coming to the shopping mall and put aside about the Lime Guy thing, just for tonight. Yeah ~ I just want to see the firework show on the night sky, must be pretty.. like me *eh ?

It was crowded and I hardly get a not very good spot to see the beautiful burning flowers, and if someone asks me what's so good about the fireworks.. I would say, I feel like all the burdens and my problems goes up and get burnt together with the fireworks ~ naive ? Yes, but I'm really being honest and sincere about it.

Christmas is just around the corner, shopping mall is full of people to the state it's kinda difficult to move around because you are surrounded. On top of that, the fact that there'll be midnite sale tonight turns the crowd into madness ~

I am walking around with my friends, one of them is looking for some coldwear stuffs for her Macau trip, oh how nice ~ I was supposed to go there in a family trip last Lebaran with my mom and sister but my job just stopped me :'( Well let's just not get back to the past ~

In that crazy crowd, when we are taking escalator to go down.. I spotted the Lime Guy :O

How on earth could this happen ? I mean, there are hundreds of people, rush situations, with my only two eyes.. I can drop my sight on him ~ May I amazed for my ability for a little while ? xD

I immediately tell my friend next to me, but they just can't see.. Is it just me, am I hallucinating or something ? But I am pretty much sure it was real. After reaching the floor, we quickly follow the direction of his :))

Ah yes ~ there he is !! I slow down my steps, getting nervous.. while my friends keep walking like nothing happens, sure.. it has nothing to do with them, they can just relaxedly walk towards the Lime Guy. What about me ? Seriously, I somehow feel my feets nailed to the ground.. and my knees must be weaken that I can't properly stand *embarassed*

He is so close ~ just right in front there ! Ottoke ~~~

I unintentionally grabbed the glass on the railing for support, but then a security officer approaches me and tell me to take my hand away from the glass for safety reason :') I wish he know what situation I am up to, why even you.. doing this to meee ~

Okay, now it feels like only me and the Lime Guy exist in the world, cos I can't see any other, which is a lot of people around me, I am trying hard to keep calm and think straight ~ Firstly, I need to make sure one thing.. the bag and the shoes, Does he bring or wear them today ?

I can see he suddenly stopped from his usual fast walk and starts talking with a guy, whom I then found out as an 'uncle-aged' man ~ I am curious who's that man, but I realized that's not the important part right now. And yeah.. the Lime Guy brings his Nike sport bag, it's just.. perfect ~ but when I scrolled down, he wears just slippers, not the cyan Nike shoes.. Oh Man ~ No way !!

For sure, I take a step back and think, maybe not today..

Honestly, I feel much relieved after making decision to not approach him this time, I guess I am really a total coward :')

Since I withdraw the intention, we decided to continue our hanging out and look for a warm scarf for my friend's preparation. I quickly recommend to visit store Cotton On because I just went there a while ago before meeting my friends and there's a really nice black long warm scarf that completely match her need ^_^

Ouch ~ It's not over yet, the Lime Guy also headed the same way after finished his talk with the uncle :O

But then it looks like he just passed by the store and we think he's going to the restroom, til suddenly he turned back and step into the store.. Yeah, that's just his style ~ walking here and there, making people confuse, and curious @_@

Okay, we move on with our own business on the scarf ~ when I and my girl friend left the store, we lost the other companion, where's he ? Later he come back to us and complain, 'I thought you guys are going to tail after that guy' so he did it on my behalf ! LOL ~

So my friend told me that the Lime Guy actually went to the outdoor terrace and smoking there.. Wait, wait, smoking ?! I lost my mind for split seconds when I heard that, but then I think it doesn't really matter kkk

And then my guy friend goin to the store again, and I am waiting with the girl friend outside. At that time, the Lime Guy walks in from the outdoor area and heading to the escalator, which is located right at the opposite direction from the place we are standing. So we just completely facing over him, divided by the mall's void, what a perfect distance ~ Is it some kind of scene in a drama ? :P

Maybe this is the first time, I can look at him with ease. I even put my both elbows on the railing and my cheeks on the palms ~ Do I look cute from there ? Why am I trying to look cute in this age ? lol ~

I think it's the end and bye bye for tonight..

Another time and another chance ? I am being greedy again ~

So it's getting late and we need to catch up to the shuttle bus on 9 pm, there's not much time for me to be sad for another fail and we rush to go down to the Ground Floor.

There's an exhibition and booths at the atrium and I don't know why my friend need to cross over the area rather than taking the side walk :| Then another friend also did the same, so I can do nothing but follow rite xD

I am not very sure if it's a natural call, or what people called 'something bound to happen' in the middle of crossing, I just suddenly want to turn my face to the right, and there the Lime Guy comes toward me o.O

OMG !!

My mind is in a mess right now ~ how could this happen ? I know I keep asking this question over and over again, but really.. how could this happen ??!!

I looked at him in shock, looked away, and look at him again, til then he realizes my gaze and look back at me *gulp*

I quickly approach my friend and tell her what's going on. We ended up stopping at a store's side before the exit door. This is the most crucial moment in my life and I need to make a decision right away. I need to go before the bus is leaving, but this is the rare second chance given to me and I shouldn't waste it again..

The Lime Guy walks straight from the place I met his eyes, showing no intention of stopping or turning. Ah ~ he's gone then. I should just leave.. But, we get surprised that he enters a store which is next to the corridor we are standing right now. And as usual, he goes in for few seconds and goes out. Strangely, he stand near the store's entrance and start leaning his hand there. What is he doing right now ? It's like he's really telling me to go to him :|

I am in the position where my back is facing his back, and sometimes I turn my head over him while hesitating to approach him or not. My friend said that I need to just go over and ask for his number :O That's crazy ! I can't even do properly with the questionnaire and now she's telling me to go aggresively like that ?! That's not gonna happen.. Well I can't really hear my friend since my mind is so busy thinking, approach.. not.. approach.. not.. approach.. not.. app.. ~

And now, he's even looking back too !!

Ouch ~ please kill me.. It's somehow ridiculous, two strangers stare at each other by looking back in a distance. It just drives me insane. Okay, I stop thinking and take my step toward him. x_X

I've never imagined that I would be able to do such thing ~

Yes I approached him, f.i.n.a.l.l.y and that moment I called him and he looked at me.. Damn this guys is sooooOOOOOooooooo Good Looking !! *especially to me*

I don't know if he wears softlens or whatever, perhaps he does.. his eyes just look extremely sparkling in my eyes.. I am not exaggerating, it's true ~ and his voice.. is completely match with his look, deep and manly ~ mommaaa I want to take this guy home, really.. LOL

And for sure, the plan works very well. He's willing to fill in the questions and friendly responds to my asking :3 I really set my eyes on a great one *proud*

Actually, there's another trick that I am performing on the color pens. You know, because nowadays a guy from a gym is worth to be questioned for his preference *if you get what i mean* I am sorry, but I just don't want to fall into the same black hole again. So I bring the color pens for the questionnaire and intentionally put the black one in the middle, with yellow and soft pink at the sides so it's easier to take them. I was hoping, if he's 'normal' he would take 'manly color' like black or navy blue to fill the questions.

My heart did skip a beat when I saw him just took the pink one o.O But fortunately, he later asked me what color is the pen and change right away after I said it's pink :)

Yay ~ he took the black \(^o^)/

I took a sneak peek to make sure if he write down his phone number.. because I put a note that it's optional to fill the number or not. But he did ~ Thanks God <3

He's really being serious in answering the questions, somehow it made me feel a bit sorry inside.. What if I tell you that actually this is not a questionnaire for my cousin's paper work ? I am sorry for not telling the truth, I can't do that. This is the only way I can get closer to you :)

I am supposed to enjoy the beautiful view right in front of my eyes, but I get drowned into his serious attitude and I found myself doing the same thing gazing at the papers all the time. What have I done ? Such a waste ~ When I come to realize, it's almost the end and I quickly take a glance at his face.. but a second later he stops writing and looks blankly at me, then he's like.. What ? Okay, he misunderstood I am talking to him because I suddenly look at him *straight face*

I am looking at a guy I like and I am caught. I can't describe this feeling any longer.

When he's done, I am taking out a 'King's crown keychain' as souvenir, okay.. I'll tell you.. it's actually from a couple chain and I keep the Queen's ~ very childish rite.. but I believe it's romantic *^_^*

I wish ~

After that, I say thank you and turn away coolly. I don't even dare to look back, I am afraid that I'll do something out of my mind xD

So that's all for tonight. And the after effect from the incident is, I keep my cheeks red as boiled tomatoes and hot as well cooked crabs for a long long time ~ but still, I am happy :D

Love In Multiple Episodes - Take 7

Seventh Sight..

December 7th - Do you ever wonder what kind of happiness are you after ? Sometimes you can feel the happiness is there, the other times it's not, just gone ~ In life, things do come and go.. Yeah, all I need to do is, catch the happiness as much as possible, with whole remaining breath left in me :)

I am actually, doubting.. if I can get happiness by my own hands, I am not sure if the happiness I am currently trying to hold, is the right thing or just shadow. But in the end, I will just try and find the unknown answer there ~

I am coming back from my hometown and feel totally refreshed, it's a good thing. But in the other hand, I feel sort of 'emptiness' for not able to see the Lime Guy on two weekends straight :( Is he doing well ? I wonder if he still wandered around like a lost child in the mall, without someone watching him with skip-a-beat heart ? ;p

In the period of time, when I was at my hometown, one of my school bestie got married. Congrats ! I am saying this in a bittersweet state, of course I am happy for her marriage.. but my dark side also whispers.. I am now losing another single friend :')

At that moment, I am pretty sure that I, soon.. will follow her step ^_^ maybe next year ? So I completely made up my mind that I should, get to know the Lime Guy I've been admiring for a while. Well, he's just perfect for me ! *in my opinion so far*

Last week, I didn't really remember but I think I did go for a walk at the shopping mall but didn't manage to see that Lime Guy. Or perhaps, since the day I left, our fate also has come to an end ? I hope not..

It was always around 7 to 8 o'clock ~ but today, I feel like going there earlier at 6 pm. Hmm.. It's just based on my instinct, and I am trying to not staying for too late :D Honestly, my reputation has been bad these days because I went back pretty late, so I am in the middle to fix it :3

I am coming with less expectation, since the time won't match, and I set a plan to root at the Starbucks and do some study there. In other words, I am not going to do 'hunting job' today. From my estimated time, I won't meet the Lime Guy at all, because I come before he comes and I will be busy doing something else when he's walking around the mall ~ There'll be no chance at all for us to meet, unless the Fate speaks..

When I reached here, I suddenly feel wanna go to the restroom *I wanna pee* :p buat going to the restrooms at Ground Floor is too mainstream ~ I dislike queue-ing for too long, so I just go straight to 1st Floor. And yeap, as expected, only few people in here :D

After done with the business, based on the plan, I should just go forward to the coffee shop, and there's escalator in front of me to take.. but I just want to take another escalator next to this one xD So I walk passing by it to approach another, and yes ~ here's where the interesting stuff gonna happen !

I should say, I haven't used my heart for quite a long time, so I guess it's already gone rusty lol ~ When I was watching drama and the girl could go crazily blank because she's seeing the man.. I thought that'll never happen in me. But, I was wrong..

I am walking peacefully, without any burden, unlike some previous weekends when I felt so anxious because I was carrying out a mission and I should do something to the Lime Guy. But today, I feel free of duty and it makes me relaxed a bit. However, I am still taking the questionnare with me, just in case.. this is D-day :)

Love may come into us in a shape we've never expected rite ~ They say expectation hurts, and good things come when we least expect it.. Ah ~ It may be right then.

This is surprising, when I just about to run into the Lime Guy again ! He's still meters away, but I already have him on my sight :O Ottoke ?! It's a one way and there's no other people than us, yes.. just the two of us will walk from opposite direction. OMG !! What kind of trial is this ?? I am not even ready, but I don't have choice either.

I've just done a quick scan over him from the meters away distance, I need to make sure if this Lime Guy is ready to be approached, I mean.. if he's wearing sporty stuffs all over his body so it would look completely natural to ask his help for filling the questions.

I admit that, I am too nervous to analyze and make a clear judgement right now. So in the end, when the Lime Guy is right in front of me.. I looked away. Yeah.. I feel like killing myself for being such a coward !! T_T

I can remember clearly, that I told myself.. if I ever saw him with his Nike bag and sport shoes, while I am holding on the questionnaire, I would talk to him no matter what ~ I swore ! And I did miss a chance before, and I believed I'll never repeat the same mistake twice.. because the regrets that come after, is too painful :( But, Oops ! I did it again ~.~"

That was a perfect timing, and I just missed it like that ~

Come to think of it, I think I can do better if I am alone, and I was.. I saw him wearing both stuffs, I knew that, but my mind said that he doesn't look like someone who's related to gym at the moment, my mind must have gone insane then, he looks completely a guy from the gym !! Yeah, my mind was a mess for the sudden heart attacking surprise *sigh*

I am in a huge dilemma, after the Lime Guy passed, I turned and take a look at his leaving back.. Perhaps, it's now or never ~ So I walk back following his steps, well.. he's quite fast so it's not just a small distance between us, and I saw him approaching the seater while taking out his phone, looks like he's making a phone call, mysterious.. as always.

If it happens based on the original plan, it would be this way. When we pass by each other, I look at him and think he looks like a member of the fitness centre, so I naturally approach him, without any suspicious intention because the pass by is a total coincidence. Then easily, the mission is a success ~

But.. reality speaks another way. I am trying to stick to the plan and I think approaching the Lime Guy while he's sitting is still not too late. Maybe it'll look like, after I saw him just now, then I feel that he may be a member of the fitness centre then I come to him. And also, it'll be better to do it while he's sitting than he's moving around with his fast steps xD

I am getting all my mind back and confidently walk toward the seater, which I think will not be crowded at this time, so it's easier for me, and less embarassing for sure. But.. but, I don't know why there are so many obstacles on my way.. the seater is full of people :O How do I suppose to approach a guy at a place like that, people will look and think I am a weird person, Noooooo ~

At the end, I turned to the exit and went to the terrace area. I don't even know why I am here, it was just a split second decision my brain made and the body followed. Now, it's getting worse, I am a two times coward :|

Okay, I made up my mind again, kicking out the embarassment and anything that say no for the mission, and I go back to the mall again. Yeah, the Lime Guy is still there. So, to make it more natural, I will take a 180 degree walk from where I am standing, it'll exactly feel like another coincidence for bumping into him again. So, I'll do it at that time. Yeay !

Ah ~ he's leaving now. T_T When I just left the terrace and walking faster to approach him, I now saw him heading to the terrace =..= Seriously, can you just kill me ?

I didn't give up, I quickly go to next exit to get to the terrace, but poorly.. there's a tenant setting up sitting area so I can't cross and I can't really see the Lime Guy from here too. Aish..

So I get in again and walking back to the exit that I just went through some seconds ago. But I can't see his traces anymore..

Hmm.. I am dying in regrets now. I just let such a great chance slides away, I always think too much, and now I got nothing. This is really really.. too hard for me ~ I am frustrated.

As for today, it went exactly as expected, no interaction or progress with the Lime Guy, get another things done and spending time at the Starbucks. Well, actually there's an extraordinary good looking barista here. I don't understand why, but this mall is somehow special.. I can't find any barista-s at this 'well born' level somewhere else. And I have my perfect crush in this mall too hehehe..

This young and good looking guy is totally an eye-candy, I don't think it's just me ~ I doubt if half of the customers aren't coming here to see him lol Well, we got to exchange eye contacts before and I feel like he has something on me *maybe I'm thinking too much again, forget it* But then, while I am doing the study, I saw him talking to a girl, they sit facing each other :O

At first, I thought he's interviewing, but more I see it.. he acts friendly, then he also raising up his phone while talking to her *getting jealous over nothing* and.. he's eating something, that's not available on the coffee shop, maybe she brought him ? I guess she must be his girlfriend then </3 You know, even though I see him just purely as an eye-candy, because to have so good looking boyfriend will be too much for me, I am going to stab every girls who're looking at him lol ~ But, don't you think it's also too much for me, to witness his lovey dovey relationship, when my mood is already gloomy enough for the failed mission :\ Why are you being like this to me ??

Finally, I can't stand it anymore.. I am about to leave but I decided to ask for a cup of water to calm down a bit, also an excuse to talk to the barista, and on top of that, so that I can see how that girl looks like *evil noona on-going*

I can remember previously that when I asked him for water, he was being friendly, also when last time he called out my name as if we know each other when giving my Green Tea Latte, but tonight.. It's all gone ~ maybe because his girl is here ? It's not fair, but what do I expect.. I am not going to date this guy anyway, easy.. When I am leaving, I barely take a glance at her o.O Hmm.. I can't be sure how she looks like, because of her thick make up, and she dyed her hair all blonde, long and a bit wavy (?) Ah.. I don't know, but since she came all dressed up like that, it's a bigger chance she's his girlfriend. So, this is his taste.. I see ~

Back to the main topic, all I need to do is keep being patience. Next time, I'll prepare for it :)

I do wish, at least.. let my crush this time, be mine.